My 5 a.m. strategic meditations
Do not discard imagination.
Imagination is a solid power;
Imagination is a reality
In the higher worlds.
Sri Chinmoy 1
When I was a fairly new disciple, there was a period of time when I would make a point of getting up to meditate at 5:00 a.m.. Inwardly, I imagined that at 6:00 a.m. hundreds of disciples were sitting in front of Guru for morning meditation, causing me to feel somewhat lost in the crowd. As a result of this inner imagining, I came up with the idea that if I 'arrived' earlier than everyone else, then I would be able sit right in front of Guru and hopefully be the only one with him up until 6:00 a.m. Thus I began my 5:00 a.m. strategic meditations.
After several successful mornings of getting up at the appointed hour, I started to feel that it was imperative that I not be late or miss a morning because I believed that Guru would definitely notice and be very disappointed. Also, I was finding that when my alarm went off, my first thought would always be that Guru was waiting for me, so it became very easy to get up to meditate. I would actually feel excited. In time, this entire experience began to blossom into a wonderful inner relationship with Guru. What started out as imaginary began to take on a precious reality.
A few weeks later, I travelled to New York for a weekend visit. I was very excited at the thought of seeing Guru but, at the same time, I was not expecting any kind of attention. I felt that as I was a new disciple, he still did not really know me outwardly. However, when I went up for prasad, Guru looked at me, gave a big smile and uttered what seemed to be a delighted exclamation of recognition, as though he was extremely happy to finally be able to put a face to the soul who was visiting him each morning.
At that moment, I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that an inner relationship with Guru is far more real to him than an outer one.
by Sanchita Fleming
- 1. Sri Chinmoy, Seventy-Seven Thousand Service-Trees, part 16, Agni Press, 1999
Sri Chinmoy's students describe their inner and outer experiences.
'Always say things in such a way as to inspire people, not discourage them'Pradhan Balter Chicago, United States
The Swimming RelayToshala Elliott Auckland, New Zealand
Patanga: my spiritual namePatanga Cordeiro São Paulo, Brazil
My inner callingPurnakama Rajna Winnipeg, Canada
Listen to the inner voiceVidura Groulx Montreal, Canada
My wife's soul comes to visitJogyata Dallas Auckland, New Zealand
Running for PeaceJogyata Dallas Auckland, New Zealand
Now you are in the boatKaushalya Casey Toronto, Canada
Learning to love songs ever morePatanga Cordeiro São Paulo, Brazil
In the Whirlwind of LifePradeep Hoogakker The Hague, Netherlands
My Life with Sri Chinmoy: a bookTejvan Pettinger Oxford, United Kingdom
'When you perform for me, always choose devotional songs.'Gunthita Corda Zurich, Switzerland
interviews with Sri Chinmoy's students